An Idealist’s Realisation
The following scenario appears typically sad on the surface but a lesson learnt saves it from that inevitability:
I like you. (well I mean how couldn’t I?)
You like me. (my ‘just one of the boys’ attitude pays off)
This has gone on unbeknownst to one another for a while. (ignorance always wins)
This mutual feeling becomes apparent to us. (there were hints)
Opportunity to share this mutual and wonderful feeling arises. (chemistry = off. the. charts.)
You retreat. (someone else?)
I am disappointed. (BLINDSIDED)
Tough cookies I guess, I grumble for a while and then begin to move on.
I must accept the fact that to be an idealist means I’ll live a life of many minor disappointments, severely outweighed of course by a few major, near-impossible, rewarding successes.
When you are hear a song that you are pretty sure is going to be on repeat for at least two weeks and then you look up the artist and you realise they make music that speaks to you on every level, who do you want to share this life-changing discovery with? Who will appreciate it the way you do?
When you want party for no reason at all, who would you call first?
When you’ve had one of those days where you couldn’t find your wallet in the morning so you wasted all that time looking for it, then you finally found it in the most logical place. Searching high and low made you skip breakfast and five minutes late to work and from there your hopelessness permeated your ability to tackle every other task at hand. You then flag going to the gym, to go straight home instead and sulk about it, maybe eat your body weight in chip and dip to add insult to injury. Who do you want to whinge to, to stroke your hair, tell you tomorrow will be better and it doesn’t matter anyway because life is all fun and games, these days are just part of it. Who would make it better?
When you accomplish something great, something you’ve been working towards for so long, who will be as proud of you as you are of yourself?
When someone pisses you off and you just need to vent about how annoying they are/were, who will agree with you completely and tell you they feel the same way?
When you find yourself questioning everything about what it means to be you, when you start to seriously considering giving your life an overhaul… Who do you need give you some perspective, to say “Stop taking yourself so seriously dork, just do what makes you happy!”?
When you are exposed to love; see an old couple strolling together, hear it in a song, recognise it in a movie or on TV, feel it between friends, who do you long for?
Is it one person consistently, a group of people, different people?
Who knows you best, who do you know best?
If it is someone that is in your life right now, that you’re 99.99% sure reciprocates those feelings, you are lucky.
Whether it’s your best friend, boyfriend/girlfriend/wife/husband/partner in crime, your mum/dad, your sibling… Don’t take it for granted because most of us, including me, thought of someone from our past when we read this.
Just around the corner…
As I get closer to the finish line of another academic year, summer holidays and all that they imply draw nearer. It seems my excitement has leaked into my musical inclinations; check these few songs out, if they don’t get you excited about unadulterated fun in the sun, nothing will.
LIPS - Everything to me. A remix of this song was brought to my attention by a friend, so naturally I hunted down the original. LIPS is a kiwi singer with amazing tone and soulful keyboard sounds, now based in New York. http://www.lipssongs.com/ This song is pretty mellow in comparison to your typical kiwi summer anthem but the lyrics make you want to take a holiday with her.
Shapeshifter - Monarch. They’re back! (enough said)
Miami Horror - Holidays. Bit cheesy that I pick a tune called Holiday but meh, I don’t care. It’s a favourite of mine and deserves to be shared, as soon as it starts you can’t help but head outdoors with a Corona and groove all day long.
~ Shapeshifter-ing DIY Desktop Wallpaper Goodness
No wonder this website has won awards! I’m not much of an internet-roamer; I’ve never been that person who has multiple funny YouTube videos/website to share when a social event turns into a laptop-fest, nor do I have an extensive knowledge about the inner-workings of the web, however I know this website is awesome!!
And how do I know this?
- It is for the most epic kiwi music group Shapeshiter
- It plays their epic tunes as you browse
- YOU CAN MAKE WALLPAPER!!
Obviously I’m quite excited at point 3. and for good reason. There are these awesome graphics that change continuously and you can simply click when you want to freeze the graphics and voila! Desktop awesomeness downloaded. Clever piece of interactive marketing, created by the team at http://www.resn.co.nz/
Back to my study, that was enough excitement for one Sunday.
PS check out Shapeshifter’s new track ‘Monarch’, it will be the kiwi summer anthem of 2011/12.
People do cute/sweet/quirky things every day.
- Walking backwards in the main square to read the ramblings of some student organisation scribbled in chalk on the ground, craning their necks at various angles to get a better look.
- Making daisy chains
- Filling up friends’ water bottles in the library, without them asking, just because they’re heading by the fountain
- Yelling and waving at someone furiously across a crowded area
- Fixing a friends’ necklace when it turns around and the clasp is showing (and other similar fashion-related fixes)
Do something cute today. Who cares if people are watching, don’t wait for someone to ask. It’s fun to be cute.